Saturday, October 20, 2007


Okay...I am certifiably insane now...The wait is driving me bonkers...At any given time, one place or another in our house looks like an F5 tornado has hit... Mike is beginning to see the pattern and just runs and ducks for cover! He says I am "nesting" - I prefer to say that I am just completely out of my mind! The most recent place that Tornado Darcy hit was the scrapbook room...For some insane reason I decided that I needed to "organize" my scrapbook papers...Now mind you, my papers were already organized and sitting very nicely on my shelf and I could almost put my finger on any given pattern or color if someone needed it. But, I got this itch to "organize" them. STUPID, STUPID, STUPID... My paper supply is nearly 17 inches thick. Yes, you read that right. Well, I couldn't do on paper holder at a time, I had to start dumping them all out and shuffling them around the room. Have you ever had a project that once you started in, you didn't know where to begin? I literally sat there for a long time (won't go into how long) trying to figure out how to sort these papers. Mike told me he would just throw them back into the holders, but I was so determined that I was going to "organize" these silly papers that I shooed him away...Well, it took 2 days to do it, but it is done! They look nice and I feel like I accomplished something, but don't ask me where any pattern or certain paper is because I could not tell you!!

Yes, I know I need to "be still" and wait upon God's perfect timing, but isn't it just like human nature to try and take control of those menial/trivial matters that in the big scheme of things mean absolutely nothing just so that we feel like we have some control. God is 100% in control of this adoption and he is showing us that every step of the way, but can I just sit back and accept that...No, I have to be doing...Well, this next week my goal is going to be to not destroy anything, organize any thing, rearrange anything, I am going to sit back and "be still"!! This is going to be tough!!!

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